Tuesday, 13 May 2008

Cybertron dan Destron @____________o

Where do I pick up? Sigh, told myself to write more this year but my laziness has once again got the better of me.

So in a quick round up, Stereophonics rocks!!!! Boy oh boy was I a happy boy : D Caught them at Fort Canning and salute to the flying Welshmen!!!!

They showed that it’s not the cosmetics and sound engineering that matters in a proper gig but experience, which they have a lot considering 11 years of touring, matters more!!!

The Phonics rounded up a good few months of musical banquet after catching EITS, Incubus and Incubus dan macam macam ada @ Sunburst!!!

Excellente!!!! Mi Amore!!!!

Then over last weekend I was at P.D for a nice getaway…..also caught Tiesto Freedom!!!!! (Insert mel gibson’s voice) tour at Admiral Marina. Not too bad, not too bad but guess I am mentally old of all these Beep!! Beep!!! Beep!!! Music stuff lah or maybe I’m no longer a poser trying to be a rave kaki or whatever lah…….just lazy is all I reckon

But the getaway in itself was very very nice….lovely water chalet at the avillion, best hotel I’ve ever stayed so far which is not a lot really, me is the stingy crash over kind!!! Not to mention the company was amazing!!! : D

On the downside, renovations headaches have no end in sight, sigh!!! Which reminds me, I’ve got to apply for an IKEA store card to help me furnish my place!!! Wah hey!!! They offer 0% repayment schemes up to 24 months for in-store purchases of 1K and above and that is a deal I cannot refuse!!!!!

Nice wan!!!!

All my Transformers will soon have a very chick display case to call home!!!! : D Hurray! Hurray! Hurray!

Wednesday, 26 March 2008

AMpTiN3sS

Ok ok, who have I offended? Why am I cursed? Why god why, did you take my amplifier? Take me instead, take me…..Oh god why? Aargh…….

Drama, drama, drama………Just when I started a new piece………Hope I’ll remember the arrangements when the damn thing is fixed. Got to get my Boss Micro BR soon, can’t risk without writing all my stuff down.

On a high note, its been a massive 3 weeks!!!!

Saw Incubus twice in a week(although the played the exact same set : ( can’t blame, I reckon they never expected someone to see them in Singapore and a week later in Malaysia), Sunburst Music Fest really goooood.

Then it was Steve Aoki at Zouk, rocking D.J man. He ish likez the RawKK Star. Loved it, although there was an incident O________o rather enjoyed that bit too……

And lastly, Stereophonics confirmed a gig in Singapore!!!!! Yosh!!!!

“Made me feel like the one, Made me feel like the one….”

Guess that’s life huh, fine balance of ups and downs and its up to you how you wanna look at it. At the end of the day, only you can decide if you are happy or sad. Others influence, but its you that’s in control. Why choose death, when you have life? @___________-o

Wednesday, 20 February 2008

Letupan Kegembiran Hati ku Di langit Indah

Ah the bliss…..There is a buzz surrounding me and thanks to Explosion in The Sky, this sense of joy has been boosted to new heights!!!

Their gig in KL last night was great and even though I am not a fan, I have to say I am thoroughly entertained. It also drove me to do the fan boy thing of getting their album at the door and lining up for their autograph : O)

Not to mention, Munaf Rayani, one of the guitarists, has cemented a place in my top axe-man list. His onstage flair and style is mesmerizing and merges effortlessly into the streams of melodies & vibrations generated by the band.

To kung fu fans, try to picture Jacky Chan in his drunken fist persona playing a guitar and that would come close to Munaf’s onstage antics O_____o

With this high gained, I can only imagine how I would feel after Incubus’s gig early March!!!! To top it off I will see them once in Singapore and then again in KL!!!!!

Whooooeeeee!!!! I ish a happy little boy!!!!! Love this feeling

Monday, 21 January 2008

Questions of Solitude

I finally got everything off my chest which is great because I fell a little bit lighter. On the down side, I realiesed that I write better when I am in a depressive state. Music comes so much easier in that state of mind.

Over the weekend, I tried to complete another track started several weeks back and all I had was a blank.

Total frustration!!!! You feel happy and yet pissed off. Sigh, I guess that is what being alive is about. Now I have to learn how to evoke depressiveness and melancholy or alternatively keep doing things that will depress the hell of out me.

But how do you do something that would depress yourself? I think its near impossible, for me at least!!!

But I will write, I will continue to compose and I will succeed. I wish I will never fall in love, like really in love, because that will make me really happy and will definitely kill my inspiring requirements.

What the hell am I saying? Of course I want to fall in love. All I have to then is just turn ‘pop’!!!

Groan, If i ever turn pop, I will have to kill myself!!! Hey!!! now thats actually quite depressing!!! Hmmmm, this might work........

Monday, 14 January 2008

Untitled

All it wanted was for the truth to be heard,
A pillar doesn’t move even if it’s not rewarded,
Care and love does not change with answers,
It feeds on the fact that you’ll find happiness,

No, I won’t ask for more and
No, I won’t demand,
How can it be mad if all there is to give?

Time might change perception but stones,
Eventually decay will destroy us, proudly
Standing in the shadows, quietly
Giving and not requesting

No, I won’t ask for more and
No, I won’t demand
How can it be mad if all there is to give?

There is no nothing, just the way you think,
There is always something, just keep looking,

Till that time, It stands, Till that time

Monday, 7 January 2008

The Doors

Opening and closing doors is a delicate business. Sometimes it’s just plain impossible to know what is behind the doors.

Holding a door open is delicate too. Hold too long and you never know what may get in or get out. Keeping one closed too long and the world may past you by.

Finding the balance between the two is an elusive art and unfortunately it only comes with experience. I regret keeping too many a door closed and regret opening some but that is fine because I start learning the right time to open & close.

Sometimes eternity is not a long time but there are times 14 days are a lifetime.

Wednesday, 2 January 2008

Tangan Lambat

Wow i wish i could write lyrics this cryptic. Interpol is fast becoming my number 1 band.

"Slow Hands"

Yeah but nobody searches
Nobody cares somehow
When the loving that you've wasted
Comes raining from a hapless cloud
And I might stop and look upon your face
Disappear in the sweet, sweet gaze
See the living that surrounds me
Dissipate in a violet place
Can't you see what you've done to my heart and soul?
This is a wasteland now

We spies
We slow hands
Put the weights all around yourself
We spies
Oh yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself now

I submit my incentive is romance
I watched the pole dance of the stars
We rejoice because the hurting is so painless
From the distance of passing cars
But I am married to your charms & grace
I just go crazy like the good old days
You make me want to pick up a guitar
And celebrate the myriad ways that I love you
Can you see what you've done to my heart and soul?
This is a wasteland now

We spies
Yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself
We spiesOh yeah we slow hands
Killer, for hire you know not yourself

We spies
We slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself
We spiesOh yeah we slow hands
We retire like nobody else

We spies
Intimate slow hands killer
For hire you know not yourself
We spiesIntimate slow hands
You let the face slap around herself

Monday, 31 December 2007

A long December, a short path in comparison

We make conscious choices in everything we do in life. Sometimes we contemplate our actions and give it more thought than necessary which in turn leads to complication.

Most things are not rocket science and do not require the logic of a nuclear scientist to figure out as they are plain as it is. What you see is what things are and the more you see the more you learn.

If life was not simple, the population of the world would only be a fifth of its current count as most will die from over-analyzing-stress-inducing-cardiac-deconstructing disease.

We act out of kindness, love and care because we simply are good. We curse, condemn & hate because we are no different from other living creatures.

There is no complex calculus involved in any of these, we know, but yet we try to think there is. Simplicity is so apparent that we force ourselves to think there is more then meets the eye.

When in fact, all that meets the eye is in fact all there is that meets the eye. So as the year draws to a close, I ponder upon the last 12 months and try to look at things as it is and spot the times when embracing simplicity would’ve makes things a little more colourful.

Next year, as I grow a little older (unfortunately this is mandatory), I will make sure simplicity prevails and live a little more.

p.s:
The list of things I would love to do in 2008 (this list is not exhaustive):

- Read more and practice writing to improve my literally skills.
- Play the guitar more and learn music with renewed vigour.
- Compose even more and record all existing materials.
- Intensify my fitness regime (it is time to get myself in tip top condition)
- Travel and have proper holidays.
- Spend a little less, save the rest.
- Listen all the time, speak only when required.
- Spend more time with my parents and make them good times.
- Keep coming up with great things to do through out the year

Wednesday, 19 December 2007

Tupai

I saw a squirrel in the office today : D

How I wish I was a squirrel. Running round freely oblivious to its surrounding. Free of thoughts and worries. Only bothered about gathering nuts…..

I decided there and then to have some fun and role played as a squirrel.

Each time I had a thought process going, I asked myself ‘What would a squirrel do?’ Errrr, unfortunately the only I answer I came up with each time is ‘Gather nuts’

Who would’ve thought being a squirrel would be so difficult.

Tuesday, 18 December 2007

Slow Cow Is I

If i miss the train again, I have none to blame but my silly self!

Good lord, my cynical self is already laughing at my own silliness. Unbelievable behaviour for a grown man!!!

Knock yourself on the head lah you lembu lembap!!!

Whoeee, that felt nice : D. A little self insult always clears my anxiety!!!

Tuesday, 20 November 2007

Vindicated

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
the things you swore you saw yourself

You are an ass for judging me even before you know me. I am fed up and you and your village can go to hell for all I care.

Tuesday, 13 November 2007

Dreaming of BOSS Micro BR!!!

Wow, its months since I wrote. Not really surprising considering my fickle mind and inability to indulge in more then one activity at a time : D

Music is a big part of my life now, bigger then it ever was. I am not great at it but I do try, as hard as I can really. So far, nothing great has come out of it yet but I know if I put my heart and soul into it, I will rock Glastonbury one day!!!

Writing now gets me thinking how shit loads of stuff have changed in so little time. For starters, I can’t believe that I am finally getting my own place soon. My eyes are gleaming with the prospect of actually having my own mini studio/library/study which doesn’t double up as a bed room : D

Which prompts me to remember, I still need to get a BOSS Micro BR!!! Maybe someone wants to give it to me for up coming birthday? : D

Tuesday, 25 September 2007

How to deal with rubbish?

It is undeniable that rubbish is part of life. They are almost synonymous as we generate rubbish the moment we are born and will only stop when we die.

Thus it’s unavoidable, dealing with rubbish. It’s just life and although rubbish is not desirable to most, living is still rather popular when I last checked.

In such circumstances, there isn’t much of a choice but to ‘live’ with rubbish. However, rubbish does pile up overtime and has to be dealt with; else it constrains our instincts to continue living.

So occasionally we gather all we deem rubbish and put them into a big black plastic bag and knot the top twice to secure the seal and off to the dumpster we go to unload the unwanted.

Knotting twice is important to prevent unnecessary spills as they can cause unwelcome chores and hassle.

A clean throw away leave no stains that smears the future.

Off I go to the nearest mart to get new waste bags and it’s about time I deal with my rubbish.

Friday, 10 August 2007

Non Flet!!

I have re-discovered the simple things that I enjoy. Nothing beats an interesting book and an engrossing PC game.

And with the start of the football season looming I am going to be a happy boy for the next couple of months : D

Juventus is back in the Serie A and I’ve got a long and grueling season in front of me. I hope they will do well and regain the scudetto. Purgatory has been served, to the heavens we go. Mi piace Juventus!

I am rather clogged up with work at the moment but as long as I have these little things to come home to I am glad. Life’s never been better. o-0

Wednesday, 25 July 2007

Complete Idiota!!!

I have lost focus recently on many things I am passionate about due to one silly thing that keeps nagging my mind. It took me several sleepless nights to finally figure out that what I am doing is extremely wrong!!!

I am rather passionate. I give a lot to the things and people that I love. Too much sometimes that I get tired and sick….

…and I don’t like to feel sick. It is very unproductive and uninspiring. So I made a promise two nights ago to stop pursuing things too hard because eventually we all have too little say in that matter. If it will happen, it fucking will. If not, well bugger then : D

I shall start channeling my ever lasting energy in the right direction. I am passionate about my music and I will strive to make something out of it!!!

I also like making people happy to the point I neglect what makes me happy! Thats fucking silly if you ask me! : D How the fuck do I expect to continue making others happy when I will eventually reach the point of total misery and fucking die of depression and sadness?

It is absolutely hilarious @_#. So I shall now treat myself to ‘happy times’ and screw those that oppose, it’s rather easy really! A couple of beers with proper music or a good football game is all I need.

Friday, 20 July 2007

Hey Ho! Lets Go!

Hmmm, my piece (previous entry) didn’t win but at least I got good reviews for it!!! The judges said it was very interesting and had a good flow, however it was not picked because it was rather incomprehensible!!!! : D No Shit!!

Even I don’t know what I was writing @_@

Anyways, I am rather excited at the prospect of performing in a dear colleagues wedding tomorrow. To add to the excitement, they picked a song I wrote (tittle: Little Carousel) yay!!! WoW! Big break? : D

Hmmm, let’s see what fate has installed for me? Maybe I WILL make it as a rock star!!!!

This got me to think of several things that I need to get done soon:

a) Write down (properly!) all the stuff I have written so far
b) Hook up with Leon the Professional to set some beats
c) And last but not least….Grow a pair!!!! : D

Mornings (afternoons?) are looking brighter, the air sweeter, the sun warmer and the feeling, priceless!!

Wednesday, 18 July 2007

Illiterate

A pleasant surprise as we had a literature contest today!!!

Everyone had to enter a rhyme, poem or whatever to stand a chance of winning a free meal : ) to spice things up we only had TEN minutes to complete our piece! (I believe this was set to ensure we don't take too much time off work really)

So what I came up with in 10 minutes? This is what.....

Trials

You wait for the sign that never comes,
The peace of mind, the subtle change in life,
Forever lost in the midst of drums,
It breaks the soul and we begin to cry.


Hours spent deciphering actions,
Lifetimes pass without comprehension,
Mimicking the eyes of loved ones lost,
Till the winter snows turn to frost.


Deny the truth, deny your roots,
But nothing changes as time goes by,
The blackened heart, dark as soot,
Tormented by self told lies.


Minutes past with every breath,
Breaking the will to traverse the length,
Forever locked in the rusted chest,
Our lives are nothing but a test.


That's my ten minutes worth, hope they don't ask me to explain it because I don't really understand it at all : D

Wednesday, 11 July 2007

Mi Piace.....

There comes a time when every one needs a little nudge to get them going in the right direction. I for one need this badly. Lost, I am getting lost. Confused, I am losing my mind!!

It’s about time I get down to spring cleaning my head. Memories, fantasies & tragedies, all swept up and stashed in a dark corner, never again to be opened until the day I die!!!!

Come the end, all shall be remembered to the sound of John Lennon singing ‘In My Life’.

I need the stability, I need the strength,
I need my ability to run the length!

So as Jim Morrison soulfully sang ‘Come on baby, light my fire!

Friday, 29 June 2007

Io Sono Juventino!!!!

Juventus Youth

Its official!!! Juventus' Youth Team will be in Malaysia in August for the youth championship organised by the G14. Juve's group is made up of the Qatar Youth Team, PSG and BARCELONA!!!
Unfortunately, all their group games is to be played in Kuantan!!! Sigh, but I am hoping that we will qualify for the latter stages and then I can catch team in K.L!!!
Its probably worth to note that the top teams from europe will be sending their teams too. Most notable are Inter Milan, AC Milan, Man Utd, Chelsea, Bayern Munich, Arsenal and FC Porto.
South American giants Boca will also be present!!!
Its a tough comp, but I know the Juve Boys got what it takes!!!
August is gonna be very interesting : )

Monday, 25 June 2007

Hard Knock On The Head

And so it goes, I slipped and fell on Sunday knocking my head on the edge of my sofa. I then rested on my bed for four hours just to chill and recover and it all started.

I had too much time on my hands and I started thinking!!! (Oh no, the worst thing to do!!)

Once again I invoked my inner demons and a long battle of ensued!!!! I would like to say that I won but no one ever wins such battles.

I wish life was more like RPGs where I would have a ‘ring of inner demon suppression’ to save me from all this nonsense.

Sigh! You think and think hoping to get the right answer to your own questions but is there such a thing as a right answer? None if you are contradicting yourself.

Worst still when you start answering your own questions intended for others!!! How the hell would you know what people would say?

Unless I have a magical ‘headband of predicting answers’ I don’t think it would do me great to assume so much!

If you want to know, you would have to ask!!! Stop making an ASS out of U and ME!! (This is my ‘ring of wisdom + 4’ doing the talking here)