Complete Idiota!!!

I have lost focus recently on many things I am passionate about due to one silly thing that keeps nagging my mind. It took me several sleepless nights to finally figure out that what I am doing is extremely wrong!!!

I am rather passionate. I give a lot to the things and people that I love. Too much sometimes that I get tired and sick….

…and I don’t like to feel sick. It is very unproductive and uninspiring. So I made a promise two nights ago to stop pursuing things too hard because eventually we all have too little say in that matter. If it will happen, it fucking will. If not, well bugger then : D

I shall start channeling my ever lasting energy in the right direction. I am passionate about my music and I will strive to make something out of it!!!

I also like making people happy to the point I neglect what makes me happy! Thats fucking silly if you ask me! : D How the fuck do I expect to continue making others happy when I will eventually reach the point of total misery and fucking die of depression and sadness?

It is absolutely hilarious @_#. So I shall now treat myself to ‘happy times’ and screw those that oppose, it’s rather easy really! A couple of beers with proper music or a good football game is all I need.

Hey Ho! Lets Go!

Hmmm, my piece (previous entry) didn’t win but at least I got good reviews for it!!! The judges said it was very interesting and had a good flow, however it was not picked because it was rather incomprehensible!!!! : D No Shit!!

Even I don’t know what I was writing @_@

Anyways, I am rather excited at the prospect of performing in a dear colleagues wedding tomorrow. To add to the excitement, they picked a song I wrote (tittle: Little Carousel) yay!!! WoW! Big break? : D

Hmmm, let’s see what fate has installed for me? Maybe I WILL make it as a rock star!!!!

This got me to think of several things that I need to get done soon:

a) Write down (properly!) all the stuff I have written so far
b) Hook up with Leon the Professional to set some beats
c) And last but not least….Grow a pair!!!! : D

Mornings (afternoons?) are looking brighter, the air sweeter, the sun warmer and the feeling, priceless!!

Illiterate

A pleasant surprise as we had a literature contest today!!!

Everyone had to enter a rhyme, poem or whatever to stand a chance of winning a free meal : ) to spice things up we only had TEN minutes to complete our piece! (I believe this was set to ensure we don't take too much time off work really)

So what I came up with in 10 minutes? This is what.....

Trials

You wait for the sign that never comes,
The peace of mind, the subtle change in life,
Forever lost in the midst of drums,
It breaks the soul and we begin to cry.

Hours spent deciphering actions,
Lifetimes pass without comprehension,
Mimicking the eyes of loved ones lost,
Till the winter snows turn to frost.

Deny the truth, deny your roots,
But nothing changes as time goes by,
The blackened heart, dark as soot,
Tormented by self told lies.

Minutes past with every breath,
Breaking the will to traverse the length,
Forever locked in the rusted chest,
Our lives are nothing but a test.

That's my ten minutes worth, hope they don't ask me to explain it because I don't really understand it at all : D

Mi Piace.....

There comes a time when every one needs a little nudge to get them going in the right direction. I for one need this badly. Lost, I am getting lost. Confused, I am losing my mind!!

It’s about time I get down to spring cleaning my head. Memories, fantasies & tragedies, all swept up and stashed in a dark corner, never again to be opened until the day I die!!!!

Come the end, all shall be remembered to the sound of John Lennon singing ‘In My Life’.

I need the stability, I need the strength,
I need my ability to run the length!

So as Jim Morrison soulfully sang ‘Come on baby, light my fire!’

Io Sono Juventino!!!!

Juventus Youth

Its official!!! Juventus' Youth Team will be in Malaysia in August for the youth championship organised by the G14. Juve's group is made up of the Qatar Youth Team, PSG and BARCELONA!!!

Unfortunately, all their group games is to be played in Kuantan!!! Sigh, but I am hoping that we will qualify for the latter stages and then I can catch team in K.L!!!

Its probably worth to note that the top teams from europe will be sending their teams too. Most notable are Inter Milan, AC Milan, Man Utd, Chelsea, Bayern Munich, Arsenal and FC Porto.

South American giants Boca will also be present!!!

Its a tough comp, but I know the Juve Boys got what it takes!!!

August is gonna be very interesting : )

Hard Knock On The Head

And so it goes, I slipped and fell on Sunday knocking my head on the edge of my sofa. I then rested on my bed for four hours just to chill and recover and it all started.

I had too much time on my hands and I started thinking!!! (Oh no, the worst thing to do!!)

Once again I invoked my inner demons and a long battle of ensued!!!! I would like to say that I won but no one ever wins such battles.

I wish life was more like RPGs where I would have a ‘ring of inner demon suppression’ to save me from all this nonsense.

Sigh! You think and think hoping to get the right answer to your own questions but is there such a thing as a right answer? None if you are contradicting yourself.

Worst still when you start answering your own questions intended for others!!! How the hell would you know what people would say?

Unless I have a magical ‘headband of predicting answers’ I don’t think it would do me great to assume so much!

If you want to know, you would have to ask!!! Stop making an ASS out of U and ME!! (This is my ‘ring of wisdom + 4’ doing the talking here)

Kok Kok Kai!

I use to think that I am a brave person but now I know for a fact that I am chicken shit!

I used to risk loosing my nuts (damn near lost them too!) for the sake of stopping a speeding hockey ball from entering the goal. Now I can’t even bring myself to tell the truth!!!

Sigh! What has happened?

I used to dive into challenges without second thoughts, even when I dislocated my knees, I still dive into challenges. Now I am perfectly healthy but can’t bring myself to do what I should do!!!

Sigh! What has happened?